Saturday, February 8, 2014

The Bigger Picture is Snowy

I can't believe how bogged down I am in the day to day.  The bigger picture seems to elude me.  But, I will keep trying.

Sunday, February 2, 2014

Groundhog Day

Snowing. Snowing. And more snow on the way Tuesday....and Thursday....and Friday. Ho hum. And my throat hurts again. Ok, time to pretend that I'm living in the north and I'm used to this and may, in fact like it. Yes. Well, I do like my BOGS, my paisley mucking boots, a lot. So I will get to wear them and and my feet will be warm and toast and there is that. I completed my 30 day journal and for February I am going to do a daily sketch in a sketchbook journal. Hopefully the sketch will speak for itself, and if I look back and can't remember then it probably wasn't worth remembering, I am not going to label it with anything but the date. My January theme of Reimagining things was pretty helpful in several situations. Did it change my life-well no, but that is usually something that happens in books and movies. For February I am going to remind myself to see the bigger picture. I am almost certain that I tend to ratchet down my vision to too many details and often lose a lot in tunnel vision. Blogger really hates my browser, I am going to have to do something about that.

Sunday, January 26, 2014

Imagine breathing

I tried to reimagine this cold I've had for the past week into something else. I did decide I could reframe it as a much needed rest, however inability to breathe or sleep didn't allow for much actual rest. One thing age may have taught me is to not ignore an illness and just press on with your life. That works well in your 20's where it's possible to push past it. In your 50's you just push yourself into pneumonia. I did go the doctor on the second day, get a shot, some good sulfa drugs and some codeine laden cough syrup. Turns out I am allergic to the syrup but didn't discover it until my cough settled down enough for the OTC stuff to take over. I honestly have to confess-I was disappointed in myself for getting sick. I've been rocking the clean eating and I actually believed I'd be immune to all the crud going around. I know.....but I had that notion. I'm still eating clean and will just focus on how rapidly all the fruits and veggies will combine to rebuild my health. So, for re-imagination purposes, I am not recovering from a bad upper respiratory infection, I am doing an early spring cleaning of my lungs!

Sunday, January 12, 2014

Re Imagine That

I couldn't wrap my head around a really good way to use Reimagine this month, so I came up with this....Whenever I am stressed about something I ask myself how I can reimagine it. I think it's a little bit like the old cognitive therapy shtick where you challenge your self defeating thoughts. But, it does seem t work. I usually think of some solution, or sometimes I just think I'll think about it later. Tonight I wanted sushi. I'm doing a weekday vegetarian diet, but on the weekends I eat a little meat or fish. (I got THAT idea from watching a TED lecture.) Back to the sushi. My budget does not afford weekly 20 dollar dinners and I had sushi last week. I KNOW I can't make sushi, but then I thought about reimagining something I had on hand. So, I took some nicely smoked salmon, topped it with a little sour cream, and then spread that on some nori (dried seaweed snacks.) It's not pretty rolled sushi, but it tastes delicious and that's what I wanted tonight, something in my stomach that tasted like sushi. When I'm at the store, considering a purchase, I ask myself if I have something else at home that would serve the same purpose. I'm pretty good at reimagining household stuff and rigging up dog training equipment from what I have on hand. I'm pretty sure making it all a game rather than a resolution or a task has helped me stay with it. I'm working on reimagining my hatred of grapefruit. I'm doing it not because I think grapefruit is essential, I'm just curious to see if I can really change my mind and tastebuds about something. So far the grapefruit is sitting on the cabinet and I've worked up to speaking to it in a pleasant tone of voice. Baby steps.

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Happy New Year!

It's been over a year since I've posted. Blogger has changed a bit. I considered starting a new blog, more focused and less free form. Instead, I think I'll just take this blog in a new direction. One of the themes of the season is renewal. I love new beginnings. I love them so much I'm afraid I begin new things all the time, often without finishing something else. I am easily seduced by possibilities. Possibilities are untainted by reality, hard work or sub par results. My mindset lately has been on incremental change. So, when my mind turned to New Year's resolutions I got the idea for a monthly resolution rather than something for the entire year. (Fear not, I have my year long list as well, but that is not for this.) Since I also have wanted to return to blogging I decided to combine the two. So, my focus for this blog for this year will be centered around the monthly theme. I'm not going to back myself into quota for posts or a format beyond that. For January, my theme is "Reimagine" In a few minute I'm going to hop on my exercise bike and ride a 5k. Why? Well, because my leg isn't up to a 5k running or walking at the moment, but I want to support a friend who has cancer and is running 5k with her husband since she can't go to a group run as she would like. She can go to the group, and I can't run more than 100 feet, but by reimagining what we want, we'll be able to do something that is life building and sustaining. Reimagination (apparently not a real word) is a powerful thing. It can turn a picture frame into a shelf, a bathtub into a planter, and it can turn what you can't do into something you can. I am exciting about exploring this idea this month.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Popping In

I actually came by to delete the blogs, but am apparently not ready. I would not delete without contacting those of you I still think of fondly-I'm not that kind of girl.

Life has progressed. I'm working in a day job now, and that leaves time for my dogs and looking after my folks a bit. Not like I'd like to (for either dogs or folks) but somebody has to pay the bills and I suppose it's me.

This morning I took a much needed sleep in a bit/drink coffee break-but even that has to be punctuated with chores. Laundry must be done, dishes washed, and things sorted out for the week ahead. But I'm at least trying to do it in a relaxed manner, and I"m also vowing not to reach the end of the day and chide myself for wasting time.

I went from not working to knocking down 60 plus hours a week for awhile and that is not how I would recomend doing it. I'm trying to tip the balance back to a sedate 45-50 as a general rule and save the 60's for extreme circumstances. I took the job in part because it would be a challenge, and I'm delighted at how many skills I've acquired during my time off.

Accounting is the same, computers are the same-but working with my dogs and working with my old folks has given me a whole new insight on how to manage the people side of things. In training-we "proof" our dogs against certain stimulus-and I have passed the proof test for one of my achilles heals; namely, the "I will do it" sydnrome. I now realize the answer to all a job's issues is not "Deb will do it" and I'm really good about saying "yes, I will, what would you like me to set aside in order to accomodate this request?"

I honestly think my brain is happier working both sides of it now, and my body is getting a better work out too-so sometimes a little more is better. The more I have to do, the more I get done. The trick is knowing what you have to do and what you can let slide.

Another mind trick I am working on is not apologizing for what I let slide, unless it negatively impacts someone else.

These are all things I've learned from working with my amazing dogs, who are the best counselors on the planet.

I am going to make it a point to pop in once a week just to write. I'm not going to mess with trying to update and instead just do this-train of thought for the moment I log in. Actually, that is probably more telling than writing down a list of current events.....buahahaahaaaaaa.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Apropo of Nothing

This summer Solo and I took a Film Stars class where he practiced looking handsome......

And posing for product endoresements.

He really lapped up the attention-and the powerade.